As I write this post. I'm feeling like I feel in the picture, pain. I'm not caring about a thing right now. Can't even describe how I feel. Just total emptiness & I don't think anythin' or anybody can refill this big hole right now. I hate to say things I don't mean but, tonight is a not that I'm just not feeling at all. I just rememberin' earlier that people you know can be so stupid at times. Like people don't understand that I'm not that kind of guy anymore...I don't do things I use to....My head hurts too. Which makes things even worse....damn I haven't felt like this since the day Hurricane Katrina came...Yea lost a lot of things from basketball trophies, favorite clothes, my bike, & most of friends....None died. I hope! But if It wasn't for that Hurricane, I would what would life be like in the N.O. Knowing me I'd prolly still be the recklesss kid that had a girlfriend right after the next. One & done to the next one. Idk y I'm blacking....yes I do..I'm sorry for that lie. Materfact I'm not cuz Idc anymore. Life's a bitch....a female dog. I wonder if my pops was still alive how would I be. I don't think I'd be same as I am now. I think comedy would be a minimum... Man I'm think starting now..I'm done wit jokes.. Everything is not fun and games...I'm realizing that slowly everyday.. I think being funny is overrated. Jokes are overrated. I'm done wit anytype of clown shit. Non-stop laughing is over. I'll be funny at times but, not the type that just annoys me or others. I see why Steve...Hate when I laugh at him.. Everything's not funny. again slowly processin' this thought by thought..
Juicy by Biggie just came on... Love the song...4 Some reason it reminds me of my pops. R.i.p. Charlie Rock...4Ever. Idk y. maybe becuz they both have died early in their life's never really getting the chance to grow up. i heard pops was a clown.. When he had me & Key, he began to grow up, I'm tryna to do so w/o having a child....
In a small light my Drake shit just came on. So I should be calming down. Its working I'm feeling OK at the moment. But who knows I can black at in second. So right now I'm on the edge, so don't push me... If you tryna get me mad, you wouldn't get far! Fucking them rap stars you know who you are.. I wrote this blog about you! Sike nah, I would say what's really on my mind but, I gotta talk her about it first.....Chill. I'm talking about Dirah...I want her say on it. ..before I just start blogging about the matter...Well thats not main reason y I'm really mad either.
I just foundout, I might have twin sister's somewhere in the Ville. So Idk.. I hope they aren't turned out. Yadamean! Hope its not to late. But I hope I do go little sisters! Wonder what they look like...who knows..I will when I see em'....WTF...It Sucks 2 Be This Cool. Still have to say this becuz this is Gang Green Gang! Ha. Remeber them of the Power Puff Girls?! lol. Man I'm done. I- Bid-You A-Due.
I just foundout, I might have twin sister's somewhere in the Ville. So Idk.. I hope they aren't turned out. Yadamean! Hope its not to late. But I hope I do go little sisters! Wonder what they look like...who knows..I will when I see em'....WTF...It Sucks 2 Be This Cool. Still have to say this becuz this is Gang Green Gang! Ha. Remeber them of the Power Puff Girls?! lol. Man I'm done. I- Bid-You A-Due.-L.F.B.
S.2.B.T.C.
Dirah.
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