Blogging makes me wonder...can i wonder(Diiirah)

Well ugh ya see. i went to sleep all early like at 7:45 p.m. early and woke up at 8:18 a.m. thinking && stuff. So to clear them thoughts i listened to some music...but every song that played(shuffle)it made me think even harder. Like wtf so im thinking, thinking, thinking, and wondering....about random stuff and Khaliq!!

• 1st song that played. Livin' A Lie: The Dream
  

this song actually makes me wonder is this love a lie. Are we livin A Lie? "behind these smiles im really hurting inside".

• 2nd Wetter: Twista
  

i just like this song plus it says "you done been good but you can do better...."

• 3rd Players Prayer: Lloyd

hmmm yet again i wonder someone always wants another chance && of course i will always be the first to give it. "thou shall not stand you up, thou shall not put his friends before you and leave you lonely every weekend, Thou shall not waste your time, thou shall not make you cry, but i did, i was wrong and im hatin' it."

• 4th Suffocate: J.Holiday

pretty much understanding this song for the first time ever makes me glow ya know. The feeling of being in love && not being afraid in letting any one know."I suffocate when your away from me, so much love you take from me, I'm goin outta my mind!!!!"

• 5th Put That Woman First: Jahiem

Does he really put me first. I wonder does he know i could remember. He forgot to be my lover. If it wasnt for name of me, would he still be out there kissing skirts?._ "Now I realize that you you need love too, then tell me how could i ever forget to be your lover."

• 6th Innocent Man: Cassidy

Behind the violence of this song...he plays as an innocent man..ahhh an innocent man with a past thats not so innocent. Could i be missunderstood .The past is never forgotten. "I'm an innocent man, I'm just missunderstood."

• 7th Promise: Jagged Edge

Promises are suppose to be garanteed. But tommarow isnt promised. Nothin is promised. Dirah && Leak arent promised but i promise that i will never leave. "Nothin is promised to me and you, so why would we let this thing go. Baby, I PROMISE that i'll stay true. Don't let nobody say it ain't so. Baby I promise, That i'll never leave, that everything would be alright I promise these things to you. Girl(boy) kjust believ I promise. "

• 8th Sucka For Love/ Exstacy: Danity Kane
  

Ima sucka over you. Its our destiny so dont look back."Im addicted to kissing and huggin, touching and rubing Im A Sucka For Love". <33.>

• 9th Cant Get Over You: Lloyd

Honestly-the song is self-explanitory. "Your to hard to get over. And I dont want nobody else to get this love. Give it to me til' i get to much, I NEED SOME MORE OF YOU.! :]]"

• 10th Love Sick: Cherish

LOVE-makes me sick but i this love is love. No offense if you as in Leak were to fck up i would honestly want you to feel it."Cry, Fill Me Up an ocean, Cry me up a river, I hope your nights are so cold, Cause now your missing my love, to live in a state of agonizing pain." regard that i would still l.o.v.e you.<3

• 11th Nobody But You: Cassie Ft. The Dream

Im not thinking of anyone else but you i dont want nobody but you. "We Fought more then tyson and holyfield, something about us felt so real, now im next to dude, I dont want nobody but you." After all your still the one.

• 12th Lust For Life: Drake

Lust- i. intense sexual desire or appetite.
ii. a passionate or overmastering desire or craving.
i have a lust for power...we have lust. as drake said "im tryna do it all tonight, i got plans, i gotta certain lust for life, as it stands, everything is goin as right, as it can. ;] "

• 13th I'm So Into You: Fabolous Ft. Tamia

Its crazy how we both thought that we wouldnt work out because we are just to different for each other. its also crazy how we both adapted to each other. Isnt it just crazy how i still wonder how we put up with each other. I guess its because im so into you."I Really Like What You've Done To Me, I Can't Really Explain It, Im So Into You."

• 14th Thats My neighbor/I want This Forever: Lil Wayne..haa

Even tho we are lovers i can certainly call em my *neighbor*.We may not last forever but its true i'll love you forever and a day. "It may not mean nothin to yall but undetrstand nothin was done for me, so i dont plan on stoppin at all. I want this forever man."

• 15th Broken-Hearted Girl : Beyonce

This song makes me wanna scream. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh. i dont wanna be without you, you know i love you, but love causes broken hearts. I dont want that either not saying i dont wanna be with you. I just dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl or either the victim. Just Read these lyrics:

"You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say I know
I'll be there at the end of the day I don't wanna be without you,
babe I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you,
babe I don't wanna play that part I know that I love you,
but let me just say I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day I don't wanna be without you,
babe I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you,
babe I don't wanna play that part I know that I love you,
but let me just say I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be,
ooh I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away,
away with you....
I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part I know that I love you,
but let me just say I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl Broken-hearted girl No broken-hearted girl."

• 16th Magnificent:Rick Ross

No Pimpin...just magnificent caught em with a smile therefore he isnt shallow. "This Livin Is So Magnificent, Stop Dreamin It Im Leaving It."

• 17th You Are My Rock: Beyonce

Your everything i need and then again the suffering of a broken heart man fck a broken heart i love you, you the truth. Life with you is simply fckin amazing. Explained in these Lyrics:

"Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I
If I wrote a book about where we stand
The title of my book would be "Life with Superman(BatMan)" That's how you make me feel I count you as a privilege This love is so ideal
I'm honored to be in it
I know you feel the same I see it everyday
And all the things you do And all the things you say You are my roc
Baby you're the truth
You are my roc
I love to rock with you
You are my roc
You're everything I need
You are my roc
So baby rock with me
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night
Reward ya, for all the things you do
You are my roc
I love to roc with you
I love to roc with you Oh oh oh I
If I wanna try to count the ways You make me smile
I'll run out of fingers Before I run out of time
To sing to talk about Sugar you keeps it going on
Make me wanna keep my lovin strong
Make me wanna try my best
To give you what you want and what you need
Give you my whole heart, not just a little piece
More than a minimum,
I'm talking everything
More than a single wish,
I'm talking every dream
You are my roc
Baby you're the truth
You are my roc
I love to roc with you
You are my roc
You're everything I need
You are my roc
So baby roc with me
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night
Reward ya, for all the things you do
You are my roc
I love to roc with you
I wanna roc with you
There's options I dont want them
They're worth my time
Cause if it's not you, oh no thank you I like us just fine
You're a roc in the sand You're a smile in a cry You're my joy through the pain
You're the truth through the lies
No matter what I do I know that I can count on you Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I
You are my roc
Baby you're the truth
You are my roc
I love to rock with you
You are my roc
You're everything I need
You are my roc
So baby roc with me
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night
Reward ya, for all the things you do
You are my roc
I love to roc with you
I love to roc with you Oh oh oh I, oh oh oh I
I wanna kiss ya, feel ya, please ya just right
I wanna touch ya, love ya, baby all night
Reward ya, for all the things you do
You are my roc
I love to roc with you
I wanna roc with you"

• 18th Love Stoned(I Think That He Knows): Justin Timberlake

Im Love Stoned...im pretty sure you guys get the concept of it. I think that he's knows. "And now I walk around without a care, She's got me hooked. It just ain't fair, but I...I'm love stoned and I could swear. That she knows I Think that she knows."

• 19th I Hate That i Love You: Rihanna Ft Ne-Yo

i hate that i love you but i cant stop wont stop :]
Ne-Yo(Leak)
Rihanna(Dirah)


"[Ne-Yo]
Yeeay! [Rihanna] Heyy heyy!
That's how much I love you (yeah),
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah).
And I can't stand you, Must everything you do Make me wanna smile,
Can I not like you for a while? (No!)
[Ne-Yo:]
But you wont let me,
You upset me girl, And then you kiss my lips,
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset),
Can’t remember what you did.
[Ne-Yo]
But I hate it!
[Rihanna]
You know exactly what to do,
So that I can't stay mad at you,
For too long, That's wrong.
[Ne-Yo]
But I hate it!
[Ne-Yo] You know exactly how to touch,
So that I don't want to fuss and fight no more,
Said I despise that I adore you.
[Rihanna]
And i hate how much I love you boy (yeah),
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you),
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa),
But I just can't let you go, And I hate that I love you so.
[Ne-Yo:]
Ooh, and you completely know the power that you have,
The only one that makes me laugh.
[Rihanna]
Sad and it's not fair, How you take advantage of the fact that I,
Love you beyond the reason why (whyyy),
And it just ain't right, ohh!
[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl,
I can't stand how much I need you (heyy, heyy),
And I hate how much I love you girl,
But I just can't let you go, But I hate that I love you so.
[Rihanna & Ne-Yo]
One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me,
And your kiss wont make me weak,
But no one in this world,
Knows me the way you know me,
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me-eee.
[Ne-Yo]
Yeaahh, Oooohh, Ohh yeah.
[Rihanna]
That's how much I love you (much I need you),
That's how much I need you, That's how much I love you (ohh),
That's how much I need you.
[Rihanna & Ne-Yo]
And I hate that I love you,
[Rihanna]
Sooooooo!
[Rihanna]
And I hate how much I love you boy,
I can't stand how much I need ya
(can't stand how much I need you),
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeeaah ohh),
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you, no)
And I hate that I love you so.
[Rihanna & Ne-Yo]
And I hate that I love you so, sooo."

• 20th I Wonder: Kanye West

I wonder if he truely knows me? I wonder if he knows how i feel?
I wonder if he knows he has my heart? I wonder if he knows the little things i like?
I wonder if he knows the little things i hate he does?
I wonder if he knows by me being scarcasic, im not being mad or mean?
I wonder if he knows i dont intentionally try to make him mad? I wonder if i keep wondering where would it lead to? "I wonder do you know what it means I wonder if you know what it means to find your dreams?"
hmmmm i wonder yadamean!! eww i finally said it.

Regard everything else Just Know Khaliq A. Newsome is The Best, Love You
umm && i put alot of effort in this shity blog stuff so read it lol. Once again the blog stuff isnt all that bad its like a freedom of speech that you already have(duhh). well it gave me something to do :]]. ily again babe<3


This Pic Cracks Me Up =D



-Diiirah a.k.a. Lil Leak<3